My Precious Kassie Lynn...

Your birthday is coming up, and you would be 19 years old. I so wish I could celebrate it with you, sweetie. I got thinking that I have missed the last 4 birthdays with you here. Kassie, you have been gone for 3 yrs. but I have missed 4 birthdays with you. I missed your sweet 16th birthday. You were looking forward to that day, just as I was. I remember how you, little miss Kassie, thought that when you turned 16 you could move out and take care of yourself! You always liked trying to be the boss, but I knew you weren’t going anywhere! Little did I know I would lose you to Heaven. Kassie, wow, I miss you so very much...

Kass, when your 17th birthday came around, I wondered what ideas you would’ve had then? I’m sure it would’ve been to rule what was around you! We know it was “your way or no way”, (or you thought that) but sweetie, it didn't always happen, did it? Even though I was wrapped around your little finger! You were so strong in the ways you thought life was going to be and it had to be your decision all the way. But there were times when I would get though to you and you would see my way was safer.

My beautiful Kassie, then comes your biggest birthday of all, your 18th. Oh, what a day that would have been for you! You wouldn't have had to follow my rules anymore! We both know you weren't real good at following the rules. But that is what made you who you were. I miss you so much, Kass.

Kassie now here comes your 19th birthday, so I wonder what you would’ve been doing now? In my heart I know you would still be you, with that big smile on your face that would light up a room! I wonder if you would’ve been a mom by now, as you so wanted kids. Remember those talks we had when you were in 6th grade? You were showing your wild side and I would say, “Kass, can't wait till the day when you have kids and I hope they act just like you!” And you would say, “My kids would do everything I say!” And I would say, “Just like you, right?” And this big smile would come on your face! Kassie, I wish I had gotten that chance to be a Grammy to your kids. My world so hurts without you in it.

Kassie, you were the best daughter a mom could every want. Yes, we had some tough times in your 8th and 9th grades, but there was so many more great times that I will treasure forever. You would just open your mouth, Kass, and I would laugh. I could be in the worst mood and you would come in and look at me with those eyes and they would melt my heart. Our love for each other was unconditional. We never left to go somewhere or go to bed without a hug and a kiss. What I wouldn't do for both of those right now! You were a true friend to all your friends. They always knew where they stood with you, because (of course) you had to rule...LOL..

Kassie I miss you every second of every day... I love you more than words can say...

Love

Mom

My Child -

With my eyes - I see you,

With my mind - I think of you,

With my heart - I love you,

With my arms - I reach for you,

With my feet - I walk with you,

With my voice - I talk with you,

With my silence - I remember you,

With my laughter - I rejoice with you,

With my tears - I grieve for you,

With my entire heart, mind, body, and soul-

I long for you.

Dear Mom,

I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peek, I could see that you were crying, you found it hard to sleep.
I whispered to you softly, as you brushed away the tears. "It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here".

I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour your coffee, You were thinking of the many times your hands reached out to hug me.
I was with you at the store today, your arms were getting sore, I longed to take your bags, I wish I could do more.

I was with you at my grave today, you tend to it with such care, I want to reassure you, that I am not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for the key, I gently put my hand on you...I smiled and said "it's me."

You looked so very tired, you sank into a chair, I tried so hard to let you know that I was standing there.
It"s possible for me to be so near everyday, to say to you with certainty, "I never went away."

You sat there very quietly, then smiled like you knew, in the stillness of the evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over, smile and your yawning, and say goodnight, God bless I'll see you in the morning.

And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide, I'll rush across to meet you and we'll stand side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see. But be patient, live your journey out, then come home to be with me.

I love you so much Mom,

Kassie Lynn ♥♥♥ 

Kassie's Cuz's Anthony,Amy & Nick when they did this pic. so warmed my heart,they miss her lots. Thanks Tina for all u do for me and Kassie luv u lots. 

Thanks Cheryl Jeremy Radford's mom

I WATCH YOU GO
I see your eyes,
One final glance as you look back at me,
And we both know it is time.
Although I swore I would never have to let you go
It's a promise I cannot keep.
I need to live and you need to grow.

My heart folds back onto it’s self
And I just bend my knees and lower my center
To withstand the buffet of the winds
That will blow by me and through me,
Without you standing there to shelter me.

The tether is cut and you are free to fly
And I lose an anchor,
And my cheeks burn, from the icy wind
And the few tears that sneak past the wall
That I am leaning on so that I can stand
And watch you go.

And someday soon I think I will find a heaven
Where I can cry the tears
And let the salt water cleanse the wounds
So they can begin to heal
But now is not the time.

One hand raised, I salute you
With a wave of good-bye
Wishing you all the blessings of this earth
And when we meet again it won't be the same
But we will always know

How much we loved and trusted and shared
Victories, losses, adventures
And just the passage of time.

Look back no more
Eyes to the future
And I will just stand here and watch you go.
~ by Susannah Thompson, 1996

Kassie & Grammy

Kass age-2 reading her Birthday Card.

Kassie & her cousins

CUZS FOREVER JULIE, AMY & KASSIE

Kassie & Aimee J. Good friends

         Angels in Heaven - Kassie, Lauren, Kevin &  Sky

Feel Free to visit their websites:

Lauren:   www.lauren-zinsavage.memory-of.com

Kevin:  www.kevinwengert.memory-of.com

Sky:  www.skypardee.com

    Angel Friends in Heaven

My dear friend Jody & Handsome Angel Sky

Angels in Heaven Kassie & Cassie Locke

Julie & Kassie Having a ball.